We Carry Him

So, its been a long time! Sorry about that… you guys kind of now how I am anyway though :)

Over the last year or so, our sweet Rivergirl has had her struggles with doubting in the Lord. Some days, she has dreams from the Lord, she wants to praise and worship and talk. Some days, she just can’t get her head around the idea that the God of miracles, the cartoon characters in her childrens bible, that they can possibly be real. We pray and talk with her often, but the other day I found this post and it really resonated with me.

When your Kids Reject Faith

Is it perfect? No, and let’s not debate. But this post reminded me of my need to keep her and my relationship strong. River is super close with her daddy, but ours is probably the weakest in our whole family. I expect a lot from her and tend to be short on grace, even when in the moment I know it isn’t fair.

The other day, I prayed with her, assuring her it was ok for her to have doubts, that God was big enough for her to press Him, that as I draw close to her that she will feel Him since He is in me. I told her of the promise in Acts 17, that we could “seek Him and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him, though He is not far from any one of us.”

This morning, she was falling apart, pretty badly. I was in a hurry, but I took the time to hold her. I got her some “Peace” blend oils for her to smell and put on her arms if she wanted. I ran out the door to a quick errand, but came back to a totally different kid. It was a¬†gargantuan improvement. It really affirmed for me that so many of the hurts in my kids can be soothed by me pouring out the love and grace and safety and joy of the Holy Spirit that I carry (isn’t that a beautiful privilege?)

Just wanted to share this post that helped give some framework to my shepherding of my daughter and her questioning heart. I know I’m not alone, and I pray peace and wisdom for all the parents right there with me.


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