Giving Up

Well, I said I had news coming, and I do! But, that is not for today. At the time of our last post, our world was headed in a whole new direction, and then was redirected once again. Let me start at the semi-beginning…

So our time here in our ministry has been really challenging for me. That apparently is the norm for most people when they get into ministry, and it was definitely a season of growth and change in my life, marriage, and walk with the Lord. I have spent a good deal of time here simply trying to handle all of the change…. In January, our church did a fast and call to Surrender all to the Lord. It was a profound time for Kirk and I, and the Lord really moved on us to stop fighting all that He was trying to do and to not only obey, but to submit in our hearts to the challenges around us. Kirk was in prayer for us during this time, and came to me and said that he really felt that the Lord had something waiting for me. That if I would only say “Yes” to this season, that if I would give up fighting, that there was a deep peace that God wanted to give me.

It was challenging for me – we had really felt that the Lord had been teaching us about boundaries in this last season. It was a definite switch to start ignoring boundaries, and start embracing every challenge that God gave us with an openness and trust. But, I settled in my heart to say “Yes”, even more than I ever had before. And quietly, I saw His words come straight to life…

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Phillipians 4:6-7

I am a go, go, go, worry, worry, worry, go, go kind of person. I am a planner, a grapher, a list-maker. And yet, in this season, I have felt content to simply wait. For the first time in my life, I have the “peaceful and quiet” spirit that I always felt was unattainable. And it is not to my glory or strength – but to the greatness of God overcoming my weaknesses. I have felt almost numb or asleep, but not in an unpleasant way -just quiet and waiting for God to move.

We got news about big changes a few weeks ago, and it was like someone turned the switch on Perfection…. how on Earth would it all come together in time? But, somehow, I knew that it would, and felt, astonishingly, no fear at all. And God proved faithful immediately after…. but again, that is a story for another day – one soon, I promise!

For now, I just wanted to sing HIS praises for being strong in my weaknesses, being faithful in His promises, and giving me His great and perfect peace. It is there, friends, even if it feels far away. The only way to it is to surrender everything you have – to give up control and let the Lord do His will. Easier said than done – but worth it when you see what He can do when you let Him…

Can’t wait to share our good news with all of you!!!!

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