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Day 103: A Dream of a Closed Door

I had another dream the other day about a dear friend of ours. A mentor of mine had given me a task and I had completed it. He said to me that I had done it excellently, and that Kirk and I had been a huge help to him. He loved us dearly, and that this was goodbye. Then, he …

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Day 88: A Cloud of Doors

It has been a whirlwind. Every aspect of our lives, every responsibility, every thought, emotion, and dream has been tested, examined, given to the Lord, taken back, and still we wrestle. This time of testing is different, somehow, more introverted, more quiet…It seems we have moved on from dealing with sin in our lives to a deeper, more probing look …

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Day 73: A Bridled Tongue

I talk… a lot. Probably more than the average person, though I can’t say I’m proud of that. I am constantly thinking of things I want to share or know: I love the connection that can happen in conversation. Talking a lot isn’t totally a bad thing: it’s a clear indicator that I am an open book, and it demonstrates …

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Day 64: News!

Here is the BIG news: We are going to the Outbound Conference!!!! Apparently, our personality test results were balanced enough (really?) that we get to move on to this next stage of the mission process. The conference is a week long, and has counseling sessions, interviews, and training workshops. I am SOOOO excited. It is set up kind of like …

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Day 60: Overstuffed Luggage

Patience is a frustrating virtue. The only way to make it less painful is to practice it and the practice is so. very. painful. We have reached a (fairly obvious) lull in the application process. Two weeks ago, after a few weeks of quiet, I asked OM for an update. They let me know they were still waiting for our …

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Day 50: Providing the Ram

In “Fear and Trembling”, Seren Kierkegard discusses how it was necessary for Abraham to keep his eyes on the Lord during his time of trial. That if he had looked about, and perhaps spotted the ram waiting to take the place of Isaac, that the blessing for his faith would have been lost. But he did not turn, and he …

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Day 43: A Dream

So the other night, I had a dream.I was standing with Kirk in a room. I looked down and on the back of my right hand I had an injury. It looked like a bruise, or maybe a blood blister, and it was horrific and growing. I screamed as my hand and wrist swelled, filling with blood. The pain was …

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Day 37: Love and Marriage

When we got married five years ago, Kirk and I each included a passage of scripture in our wedding vows. Mine was Proverbs 31:10-30, which is about a praiseworthy wife, and how I would strive to be that in our home. Kirk’s was Ephesians 5:22-32, which is about our roles in marriage, and their representation of Christ’s love for us. …

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Day 28: The Healing Pain of Correction

So, when God goes to work, He goes to work. It seems like if you ask Him to transform you, you really don’t need to ask twice. It has been a long couple of weeks for both Kirk and I as we are finding ourselves being refined. We really want to be prepared if the Lord places us in this …

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Day 22: Cash Control

Money… this used to be one of my largest fears, something that really controlled me. I used to be so stressed about money that I would avoid looking at our bank account for days, too stressed to pay bills or try to balance the checkbook. Money was TIGHT, and I lived in fear. Then, a friend of ours led our …